OK... so the universe has let up its grip on me. Or perhaps it’s because I’ve just come to accept it and its grip feels less debilitating. Or... perhaps it’s a combination of both.

Who knows... but let me tell you... whatever I was working thru leading up to the Lunar Eclipse is now virtually over. It’s pretty wild how simply releasing the emotions associated with various issues can do!

Things are happening at the speed of light... at times I wonder if I am ready for it all but I’m NOT going to question it. At least not yet... right now I’m flowing like a thawing river at spring... currents running fast, water crisp and clear. And that is a very nice change for me.
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Almost immediately after writing about my issues with my weight, the heartache associated with the weight gain and the perceptions I adopted – its' power over me – I felt free. I felt freedom from its chains. I released it, by acknowledging it and voicing it and most importantly, letting it go. I had to give it a voice – let it vent in frustration and fear – so that now I have room to do something about it. Like a pressure cooker - I let the steam out and now I have room for the important issues in my life.

Today is the first day of this life patterns change... and the diet that comes along with it. The nice change is – this time, I didn’t start this ‘diet’ (for lack of a better word since this is a life pattern change and not a diet) with trepidation or fear or defeat. I am not afraid of being hungry or starving. I am not afraid of being exposed or vulnerable. My head is in a good place and this will give me a fighting chance to get it right – for me. My head and fear don’t have me defeated at the starting gate. I’m sure I will have my moments of sheer revolt. Of course I will. But I won’t let that keep me off my course.
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The most amazing thing about this is... admitting that I felt extremely undesirable to the opposite sex... has suddenly made me desirable. Well – of course not to everyone. Whereas before, I exuded a fearful and undesirable energy – I am now attracting men that are more in line with the mindset and energy that I seek. I still struggle with the occasional demon that rears its ugly head... but it's not daily anymore. And although my ultimate goal is to find a long-term relationship, I am more than willing to start things off slowly and establishing a foundation of friendship with the goal of more, in time. I still have internal work that needs to be worked thru before I am at that place... but it feels good to believe I deserve that companionship.

So... I have a date this coming Saturday. With someone new. Someone local – which for me, the queen of long distance relationships – is a big thing. I am stepping outside my comfort zone in that way. I am allowing myself to be OK no matter what - mistakes et all. He is seemingly rather nice.

My situation with the other fellow – has calmed down and the dust has settled. But we agreed that a conversation is a must. And that is going to happen on Sunday. He is not so local... but not thousands of miles away either. I've decided that things must change... and in the meantime, I am allowing myself to be open to other possibilities.

What does that mean? No clue. I know that my profiles online are getting more attention and what appears on paper to be quality men are seeking my attention. That is flattering. And I am learning to accept the compliments as genuine and sincere. This is hard for me. But for some odd reason... now that I’ve released those fears – I am free to simply be me. And that appears to be a good thing to a few select men. Time will tell... but since I am a serial monogamous dater... this sudden influx of interest might prove to be interesting. Time to change things I suppose.
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The other amazing thing is how quickly a ‘lost’ dream made a reappearance and is in the process of becoming a reality. My father has been instrumental in giving me the kick in the ass that I needed to make it happen. He believes in my abilities and knows it is a very good thing. So, a part-time business opportunity is being birthed. EBay has been instrumental in getting what I need at very affordable prices. I will talk with an accountant to make sure I can set it up so that I can make my house pay for itself. This is a very exciting opportunity for me... which makes my day job bareable. And for as long as I can – I will do both – my day job and help others on a part time basis.

Once I have things setup, I will share the details. But for now... the universe has sent my father to tell me ‘nuff is ‘nuff... get off yer ass gurl... make it happen.’ And I am seeing that it only really takes small changes to make a big difference. I’m smiling a lot these days.
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And the fun part of all of this fast paced life... my best friend and I have booked a ‘just because’ trip to San Antonio Texas on our Canadian May 2-4 long weekend. That is our Queen Victoria holiday for those who wonder. We are both really excited about this trip!! A quick long weekend to a city neither of us have been to before... is exactly what this Sagittarius needs! The price was incredibly right – flying out of Detroit into San Antonio and staying three nights... is cheaper than flying within Canada – flight alone. I feel really excited about this trip – more than going to Cancun.
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I don’t know what happened... seemingly overnight. There are no cures for the issues inside... but it appears that I did my assigned homework leading up to the Lunar Eclipse. There are only resolutions and determination on my part to work thru the issues. Those unsettled feelings allowed me to expose the issues and be truthful over what is to some ridiculous... but debilitating to me. And in doing so... I released it, let it go and now – I have room for more while working on the details of those issues, taking action to make a difference... and the universe is rewarding me. Spring is around the corner and it feels really good.